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Video Games Recently I have been playing a lot of Mabinogi. I was fishing for an event and I ended up making about 1,400,000, which isn’t a lot of in game currency thanks to virtual inflation. I wish I could find easier ways of making money in game. I really enjoy the story even if I’m just skimming through the story without paying much attention; There was a fucking dragon attack?

The eternal cosmos hungers for my soul; I am the universe and the universe is me. I allow myself to exist on a molecular level due to bordem and laze; I miss you now and forever. Each passing moment is that of dread of which fills me to the brim with haze. I am fog. I am dismay. I am the star that rapidly expands in the distance. Bask in my glory and fill yourself with an animalistic fury from my sufferage.

I have been doing worse in school this semester than the last, but I’m not sad, this whole school year was more fruitful than every year o class before this. I kind of wish that instead of shipping children to a shitty school, they made it so that they have to upkeep more strict standards than what are currently happening. I remember my school lunch ladies only wearing the proper equipment when they had an inspection.

In school recently I’ve been learning about Japanese history (1990s). I’m doing an essay about the events that happened during that period, and how they might have affected futuristic media. A lot of early cyberpunk media was very bleak, dystopian, or otherwise pessimistic for the future. After talking about the events that have transpired from the time period with a friend of mine, I am far more interested in it than I may have once been.

Recently I’ve been reworking a Serial Experiments Lain Ukagaka, this is essentially a little character (lain) that sits on your desktop. It used to function much like Bonzi Buddy, however nobody really uses it for those functions anymore. Some processes I am thinking about including in it are; Random Esoteric Bullshit, Fun Fact button (lain is very interested in computer engineering, pscyhology, and milk, so I thought to include these interests of hers into the ukagaka; much like the Mayura ukagaka says stuff about retro games and old imageboard memes), A diary the user can read (just a mirror of “Lain’s Diary” from the PSX game), a few links to things I feel newer lain fans should read to immerse themselves in the ideas given throughout the show and game, such as historical internet documents, a website dedicated to analyzing just the show through every practical lense you could think of, and the game.

My roommate moved out of my dorm. I don’t feel particularly bad about it, but I will miss her. I don’t think she had issues with me. I unlofted my bed and set up my desktop computer. I will be able to do a lot more dev work on VR / Art experiences. I’m very excited for the times to come. A friend of mine did a tarot reading for me today and it was very positive… I feel silly for hoping that it’ll be true.

I’ve been thinking about sewing projects to go through recently. The list of things to draft are a military styled coat, a lace choker outfit, a basic dress, and maybe something lolita inspired (based off a pattern from one of those lolita magazines hehe). I’ve been thinking about drafting some straight legged pants, and I got some sewing resources from incessantpain. As long as I keep having the motivation by the time I have a sewing machine I will be golden.

I revamped the website finally. I want to make a webring, a portfolio page, a website for my art commissions, and then finish the linux and second life pages. I don’t play a lot of second life anymore, but I want to make a cheatsheet for myself for stores I like and tips for new players. There isn’t really good tutorials for making content for second life but I also don’t know how to make clothing that well either.

To no one’s suprise at all I had to drop my math class. I’m very upset about it but I was not really prepared for the way that she teaches. I have been in kind of baby math classes for a while because of the highschool I went to having primarily learning handicapped students (or lazy) So we hadn’t even gone through the entirety of fucking Algerbra. I also could not keep up with the latest math teacher I had my last two years of highschool.

Recently it’s been a bit boring. I might just be time traveling through modern schooling. It’s already been like 6 weeks since I started school, but it feels like 2 weeks. I had skipped two of my classes today due to a massive migraine. It still hurts a bit… I think the weather is messing with my head. It’s alright. I am doing fine in the computer science class and I will be upping my game in the math class.

Last night I fucked around with linux setup again. I opted for lutris setup finally, fixed the font issue with AIR, setup a touhoumon game, etc etc. I feel unreasonably proud of myself everytime I fix something on my machine; Soon I will rebind my new tablet’s keybinds so that they actually make sense with azpainter. As of right now I have also been working on a new layout idea for the website; something that matches the blog theme a bit more.

A project I’m cooking up right now is only theoretical. I have not gotten the time to start on the venue for the art show; but it’s making progress regardless. I want to make a painting that encases how I feel about my life currently. I have been reflecting on the last year due to how nice feeling growth is. Over the summer I normally feel very static, there is no change there is nothing to do there is nothing.

Computer Science Today; my professor is talking about the fundamentals of code. He has mentioned flowcharts and pseudocode in the last few minutes, and then asked me about my bike. (I am sitting in class as I write this). I’m not really paying attention because I think I know what I don’t know. Anyways; during class I am reading random blogs I’ve found on neocities. I’m really into reading incessantpain’s website.

I have been in College for approximately 3 weeks or so. My favorite professor is the Japanese Professor, due to his silly nature and terrifying appearance. My second favorite class is English. The way the instructor teaches the course is wonderful, and it has encouraged my love for writing again. More specifically journaling, which is possibly why I started this up again. I’m going to section this Category into notable things I’ve learned recently.

Over the last few days I’ve been attempting to program more. I coded an art porfolio, a fake website, and now this. I have also been trying to get back into drawing more often again. During the summer I completely took a hiatus from most things, we were in the process of moving and all of my stuff has been packed away in a storage unit. I am stranded to a laptop currently, which is possibly why I have been so productive.